Abzurdah

While this life starts to collect tolls
Disguised behind a smile
as this perfect plan is carried out
But, oh God, I feel I have lied
I lost all faith in the things that I could
I have woken now
to find myself
In the shadows of all I have created,
Wanting to be lost on you.
(away from this place I did)
Do not take me away from me?
Crawling through this world
while the disease runs in my veins.
I look inside of me
but my own heart has been transformed.
I can not go on this way
Repudiation particularly as I became.
Lost in a dead world,
achieve more,
So tired I have been living this lie ...